I was very, very tired so I allowed myself to drift off to sleep on the couch. I woke up about 1130 and moved to the bed. My lady friend called, about 1215. Nothing but bad news there. I asked her to give it to me straight and ofcourse I am not the only guy in her life. Which figures that a woman like that is juggling a bunch of men. I will probably move on. She also finally came clean about going to the formal with me… This is the best part. She may go with someone else! How embarassing! If I don’t have a date, which I won’t because i will spend most of the next month out of town. I have decided I just wont go. Which depresses me terribly bad. I really enjoy those events, but alone just isn’t cutting it anymore. My motivation levels have just bottomed out. So here it is a little after 2am and I cant seem to get comfortable. I have alot on my mind, women, work and more work. I don’t feel so good…… I think I am going to stand in the shower for a minute. Work is only two and a half hours away.
My argument with sleep
I don’t quite know what it is about sleep that just pisses my body off. There are few nights that I actually get a good nights sleep. Actaully I did get some good sleep when “she” was here, but other then that it has been years. Most nights I’m awake tossing and turning all night. I know a lot of it has to do with the amount of self induced stress applied to my body on a daily basis by my stupid brain. I just want a little switch hidden somewhere on my body that I can flip and make myself an ordinary dumbass for 8 hours a day. It’s 335am right now. I have been awake for a solid 15 minutes, but i have woke up for a few seconds about 5 or 6 times in the 3 hours I have been in the bed with the lights off trying to rest. Now I have my alarm set for in the morning at 8 am so I know its not that I am oversleeping in the mornings. I know you guys are going to comment about why i have an alarm set on the weekend. I get up at 5am everyday of the work week. If I let myself sleep till 11am on Sunday it will make falling asleep on Sunday night even more difficult. Then when 5am comes around I will feel like smacked ass and it’s only the first day of what sometimes turns into a hellish work week. I need sleep people!!!
