Anxiety, what a bitch…

So, I’m seeing the doc once or twice a week. I am improving, but this shit still sucks. A few more months and hopefully life will plain out.

I moved into my dream job this week. It is the job I have built my entire career around. I am so pumped, which unfortunately I sometimes confuse with anxiety. I also fear anxiety arising around the new office. 270 men demand on me to be at my best all day everyday.

So, new girl is awesome, just like I stated before. I guess I have just developed a complex. I find myself so concerned that she will just walk away. She even stated that I was doing great, but I still find myself worried. It is amazing though, when I am not being stupid, I can see myself with her forever.

I’m not hoping, because hope is for shitbirds who never get anything. I am going to win.

New Girl

First off, Thank goodness! I was beginning to think I was an outcast from all females.

However into my life walks this beautiful girl with a great head on her shoulders. She is just crazy enough to, not only tolerate, but actually like me. I like her too!

I said I would keep everyone posted

I’m not so sure the girl I’ve been talking to is going to work out. She didn’t make any time for me this weekend……………………………………………. She may just not have any time for me. She just can’t manage her time well enough. I am going to give her a few more days, but it doesn’t feel right….

Back to my life….uggg…

Well after about 10 days off work i decided on Wednesday night to go ahead and return back to work on Thursday morning. It all started nicely with an hour swim, then back to the office. I have to admit I have become very good at what I do. I was literally caught up with email and office BS in about 15 minutes. I quickly realized I really didn’t have anything to do…. Both Thursday and Friday both started well with some exercise but after that they quickly returned to the place i have began to hate. Hopefully about one month or so from today I will be selected for promotion. That will open a new door for my career. Hopefully it will restart the challenge I love about my job. I am done with my current position either way. I may take over a new, for lack of a better word, assessment platoon for my current company if I dont get promoted. We will see.

This afternoon I am going over to my best buds house for a b-day party. His mother in law is getting another year older. Should be nice. His entire family and I are good friends. I spent the morning picking up all the limbs in my yard from the passing storm. We were very lucky that we didn’t get the inches of rain that other areas did. I was asked out tonight by a woman on one of the dating sites. Just by reading her profile I am not attracted to her, but i may go out anyway if for no other reason but just to keep me out of this house.

On that note, i have a ton of projects going on around this house. I just cannot seem to get myself to do any of them that are indoors. I can go outside and work all day and have made some headway in the yard. Inside however, nothing, absolutely nothing……. I so need a woman to take charge of my life aka girlfriend…