This week, although short, has been just as much of a pain in the butt as weeks past. This job officially sucks. Today I finally got some details though. They are intentionally making this painful to make my future boss grow a pair… ARGH!!!! My job isn’t to babysit people who own me!
On a much better note, my third grade crush has decided to come visit me this weekend. I am very, very pleased with her decision!
Over the past few years I have thought long and hard over the question, family or not. By that, I mean should I ever have kids? Do I want to even think about it? I think I have come to a conclusion over the past few weeks / months. I do want a family.
Went out tonight, kinda spontaneously with a young lady I met on Yahoo Personals. I was excited about it because we seemed to have a few things in common. We met and went for a walk down the beach for a while. Time just to talk, I have to say that she made a good first impression. We are going to go out again on Wednesday on a more formal “date”. I’ll keep you guys posted.
I was given today off. I didn’t use it to accomplish much. I went to the grocery store and laid around the house. I did buy myself a pumpkin while I was at the store. I spent a while this afternoon carving it up. 
I think it turned out pretty good.
So my cougar and I went out again last night. We visited a local haunted house. We had a good time. Her potential for actually dating me has grown. On another note, “Ms Slow” and I did spend a few nice nights together, but again she has grown scared of becoming more then friends. She wants to remain friends for a while, then maybe later on get more serious. But I have to say that she is the one that pushed the relationship further along. Now I feel it may have grown sour. I hope not…. Meanwhile, the cougar and I will continue to date and have a good time. Here is a picture of her and I from the formal last week.
Well, my fate has been decided by those who command me. I am to remain here and start up a new company inside my Battalion. I was very dissapointed with there decision. I wanted change so terribly bad. I needed it. So, with the lack of change placed in my life back work, I have decided to make change inside my own life. More to follow on this. The assignment has the potential to make me very happy or very unhappy. Which one has yet to be decided.
“Ms. Slow” and I hung out on Thursday. I have to say it was one of the best dates of my life. We didn’t even do anything spectacular. Dinner and a movie at my place. We are going to see each other once again tonight… We have a chance once again, but I want to remain the theme of our fledgling relationship.
Last night was the formal. The event went well, but I found myself board with the same ol’ “formal.” Our unit needs some serious overhaul when it comes to events like this. My date was the “Super Cougar,” as she has been crowned by my peers. We had a good night, but there is a connection missing. Strange…. I am not sure what it is.
I am still not quite sure where I stand, but I have a date for the formal! Yay! A friend introduced me to a friend. She will make a good friend and probably nothing more, not to mention she is so hot she will probably steal the show!
I was very, very tired so I allowed myself to drift off to sleep on the couch. I woke up about 1130 and moved to the bed. My lady friend called, about 1215. Nothing but bad news there. I asked her to give it to me straight and ofcourse I am not the only guy in her life. Which figures that a woman like that is juggling a bunch of men. I will probably move on. She also finally came clean about going to the formal with me… This is the best part. She may go with someone else! How embarassing! If I don’t have a date, which I won’t because i will spend most of the next month out of town. I have decided I just wont go. Which depresses me terribly bad. I really enjoy those events, but alone just isn’t cutting it anymore. My motivation levels have just bottomed out. So here it is a little after 2am and I cant seem to get comfortable. I have alot on my mind, women, work and more work. I don’t feel so good…… I think I am going to stand in the shower for a minute. Work is only two and a half hours away.
So the new lady friend and I spoke as I mentioned. She let me know she is interested in slow and I agreed that slow is good. However, i don’t think she has time for me in her life. Now this is a change for me. I am normally the booked up guy. In the past few years, however I have grown up both at work and at home and I can create more flexibility in my life as needed. I am getting ready to go out of town on business for a few weeks and I return just prior to a formal engagement for my organization. I love these things. I enjoy getting dressed up, going out and socializing. This year looks like it will be my second year in a row where I will find myself alone, no date…. I hate it. It is things like this that make me dislike my life. Generally everyone will have a date. Hell, all my peers have wives that will escort them. I do not want to sit alone again………
What the hell is wrong with me anyway? I am secure. I am stable (mostly). I have set myself up financially. I have saved a small fortune towards my goals and retirement. I am a gentleman in all respects. Once I get to know someone and see that we care for one another, I do absolutely everything I can for them, especially the little things. I don’t come on too strong though. I am pretty relaxed. I am not demanding or self centered. What is it, someone tell me? I hear all the time, “you just haven’t found the right woman yet.” I hate that. Everywoman I meet spends the first few dates asking me, “why aren’t you married yet” or telling me that I am a good guy. Hell, everyone tells me I’m a good guy. So, why then am I fast approaching 31years old with nothing of a relationship to show for it? Why?
I’m not so sure the girl I’ve been talking to is going to work out. She didn’t make any time for me this weekend……………………………………………. She may just not have any time for me. She just can’t manage her time well enough. I am going to give her a few more days, but it doesn’t feel right….
This past week proved to be a very demanding week. I was telling the young lady I am talking to (the same one I mentioned a few weeks ago) that it wasn’t physically exhausting, it was mentally exhausting. I watched the creation of the case against one of my best buds, well I thought best buds. Now I am beginning to have my doubts. I guess I’ll go on to side note really quick. I am one of those people that will stand up and sheild my men with all my might when it comes to just about anything. But you must come clean with me. Now I have watched the evidence stack up against my co-worker, the man I have spent the last three and a half years growing to take my place. And yet still he doesn’t seem to be telling me the truth. I know that the evidence will never match up from both sides, but it does not look good.
So, the upcoming week looks to be one were I could find myself alone in an office slotted for 12 men… Four of which should be of the rank of Sergeant First Class such as myself and the rest should be Staff Sergeants. We are spread a little thin these days. I am already hard at work on my plan to refill my Platoon’s leaders. Time will tell. Meanwhile I should know in about 10 days or so whether or not I have been selected for promotion. I have my fingers crossed. I wasn’t nervous about it at all until everyone started asking me about it nearly every 5 minutes. I had myself all calm, after all if I get overlooked and selected next year I will still be a few years ahead of my peers…
So as previously mentioned I am still talking to the same girl. She is very sweet and seems to care. I haven’t seen her in two and a half weeks though. She went out of town to see her parents for 9 days, then came home to work 12 hour days for 6 straight. She works a lot. I work a lot. I am not so sure how I will ever meet and be able to maintain with anyone…… I will continue to talk with her, we have some wonderful conversations. We can easily find ourselves on the phone for hours… We soothe one another. Did I mention she lives about an hour drive away? It makes it even harder. This week I needed someone to sit and talk with, but the position went unfilled. Her and I talked over the phone almost everyday, but I can’t talk about work over the phone. I guess we will have to work something out. I will keep you posted~~~~K
